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keep my name out of your mouth
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| old school |
[Aug. 12th, 2006|05:20 am] |
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If you see this, comment.
I will send you something pretty. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 1st, 2005|07:15 pm] |
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it's true: i even sleep when walking |
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| a nothing update |
[Feb. 25th, 2005|04:15 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | new hipv | ] |
remember this: 7 months later, just when you think you've finally forgotten about someone, they will literally walk right into you at Starbucks. On a weekday at 11am, while you are wearing your school gym pants, and probably look really disgusting.
I am truly convinced there is some type of higher power Jesus, Satan, a flying angel, whatever, just because the things that happen to me are far too ironic and odd for there not to be.
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| don't wear it on my sleeve |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|03:14 pm] |
somedays you wake up and everything just changes. it's like the plates in your mind magically shift and you just realize you can't go on living the way you've been living. and it doesn't make sense because esentially, nothing really has changed. the situation is the same, and everything on the surface looks the same as it did the day before. but maybe you've changed, and you just don't realize it until later. in psychology, i think they call this a break-through. you see things clearly for the first time in months, sometimes years. you realize your just living in a metaphorical black hole, and theres noone to get you out but yourself. and living in a black hole isn't as bad as it sounds. you just ignore the problem, make like it's no big deal.
my life is good, sometimes border-line perfect i would say. but thats partially due to the fact that i live in denial. ignoring the problem has been easy but confronting the fact that there is a problem will royally fuck up nearly everything in my life right now, and it couldnt come at a worse time. i guess i'm just selfish.
i don't know, i just had to write this down somewhere. |
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| Holden Caufield |
[Jan. 22nd, 2005|09:19 pm] |
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| | amazing | ] |
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| | straylight run | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|06:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
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| | coldplay= dont panic | ] |
2005, arithmetic style:
- a few inches of hair
+ disgusting week-long coldsore
+ bad relationship
- one "best" friend
+ school is horrid
- my college applications, except 2
+ toot making me sick
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a shitty start to the year |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|01:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | home away from home- all rights reserved | ] |
today i went to the Met. I like it there. If I had an apartment on 5th Avenue, I could build a new nest for the Pale Male. That would be nice.
I just ate an enormous chicken leg. It was practically tasteless though. I'm back to eating like one large meal a day because I have literally no appetite. I guess that's karma. Maybe I should just learn my lesson. The only times I do eat are when I'm out with other people who want to eat, luckily that seems to be every day.
This psychic in the village read my cards. That really nice one on Christopher Street with all the tapestries and awesome-looking stairs. Yea, I don't reccomend it.
It was bullshit. She had my life all wrong. And if what she said about my futrue was true, I might as well put myself out of my misery now.
The winter depresses me. Different parts of my body seem to have different air temperature zones and thats a pain in the ass. Getting dressed has become a major task.
I'm not looking forward to new year's. The future freaks me out. I think thats why I always cry on my birthday. Even when their good, Birthday's are always depressing.
( stolen... ) |
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| chris riggs |
[Dec. 27th, 2004|10:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
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| | the killers- mr brightside | ] |
i think this is my new favorite song of the moment. love it. makes me want to cry and dance at the same time.
Christmas sucked, I refuse to sugar-coat it anymore. And I'm not referring to the presents because I actually got a lot of amazing things I really don't deserve. Christmas just somehow seems to get worse every year.
Besides that, my break has basically consisted of me returning to my lazy nature and doing almost as little as possible.
Today I met my crazy Aunt, who gave me a tour of her Redidence. The apartments were actually really nice and there's a kitchen and a gym. It's in Gramercy Park , right next door to the SVA dorms. I should apply to SVA just because I'd be saving a lot on transportation. It was really nice of her and it's nice to know I'll have somewhere to live come graduation. I think my last day of classes is May 13, hopefully I won't have any exams and I can peace out New Jersey by the 14th. Wow, that's like 5 months. insane.
I'm going to really miss my dog & the Reo too.
I wanted to accomplish all this stuff over break, but I've basically been sitting around watching sex & the city dvd's.
Yesterday I went to bed at 1am and slept until 4 pm, no joke. That's 13 hours of sleep. Then I sat around for a few more hours then Matt & I went to Benihana and came back to my house to watch Napoleon Dynamite(completely over-rated by the way, except for the chapstick scene).
And that's an example of everyday this past week.
I thought I had like, more that 2 friends, but everyone seems really busy this break of on vacation. assholes.
ow my stomach hurts |
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| childhood |
[Dec. 21st, 2004|09:11 pm] |
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| |  nostalgic | ] |
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| | blitzkerig bop | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|06:44 am] |
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| | matt skiba | ] |
something that pisses me off:
those Yellow Ribbons that 99% of cars now have on their bumper. Am I the only person who realizes that there's a strong possibility that the troops in Iraq might be a little too busy or too far away to check out this magnet?
I don't hate America, I just doubt the fact that slapping a stupid magnet, mass-produced at a sweatshop in China, has meaning. Everyone supports the troops and hopes they will return safely. Maybe you all should try telling them directly, instead of just driving around with a big magnetic banner your probably got at K-mart.
Another thing that pisses me off is these Livestrong bracelets. It's awesome that so much money is going to Cancer research, but now people are selling fake bracelets, making money off a disease that kills millions. And most of the people that buy these bracelets buy them because it's some sort of new trend.
I find it really depressing that most people will only donate to a cause when others are watching, when they can get something in return for themselves. Nobody donates money when noone's there to see them do so.
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|05:27 pm] |
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| | unmotivated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | thursday- war all the time | ] |
update for the masses:
-i have mono. this means i sleep for 10 hours and then wake up ready for a nap.
-school sucks more than ever this year. i have 3 papers due tomorrow and my English teacher is ruining my social life.
-i did suprisingly well on my SAT's and decided yesterday to apply to only 3 schools, instead of the 12. it would suck if they all rejected me.
-I hate the winter and I'll be seperated from my family this Thanksgiving.
-Saturday night Matt took me to a Drag Queen show in New Brunswick. This was more fun that it sounds. I like him because he's hot(i'm shallow, i know)and he makes me laugh. but at the same time he's dumb and doesn't know how to hold my hand right.
okay, now the update button.
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| stomp |
[Oct. 28th, 2004|09:34 am] |
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| | ill | ] |
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| | jimmi hendrix- watchtower | ] |
my secret dream is to pack my suitcase, drive to the airport in the middle of the night, and get on a plane to Europe or California or anywhere that's not here...
on Monday I actually made it to the airport, paid for that parking pass thing and everything. But there's always something that makes me change my mind at the last minute and I hate that. |
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| not updating |
[Aug. 31st, 2004|01:51 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TBS- a decade under the influence | ] |
hold my hand through thick and thinner
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| I love Ryan |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|12:12 am] |
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| | touched | ] |
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| | death cab-steadier footing | ] |
"We live in a town where out Mayor and Priest both turn out to be gay. Oh, and they commit adultery."- Ryan
I LOVE WOODBRIDGE. Come back, McGreevy |
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| this summers ok but.. |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|12:18 am] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the cure- lullaby | ] |
i want summer love.
i am oficially jealous of all couples in love. you people are assholes. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 7th, 2004|12:14 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | heartache | ] |
| [ | music |
| | rancid- you don't care nothin' | ] |
yesterday I was in the Bahamas, today I'm in New Jersey. I haven't been in my house for more than 2 consecutive days since school got out. It feels weird. But its summer and it's slow. So I can't complain. Life is good, pretty good. I don't feel the need to write about it on Livejournal, though.
But can someone tell me why Rancid is not on Warped Tour? Rancid IS Warped Tour. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 25th, 2004|07:00 pm] |
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| | curious | ] |
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| | smashing pumpkins | ] |
husband<33
i have this problem where i'm always too lazy to charge my camera battery, so my camera usually dies 10 minutes into the night and i with 2 or 3 really blurry pictures. oh well.
this guy just asked me what i was doing, i said nothing, im bored. he says "what do you want me to do to entertain you?'' does that mean he wants to have phone sex? disgusting
guys confuse me, seriously. what the fuck is wrong with you people.
having this livejournal has resulted in the fact that i no longer want to write about my life, i just want to read about everyone elses.
sorry i'm not more of an attention whore. |
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| 'fuck you, you fuckin' fuck.' |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|08:12 pm] |
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| | radiohead- airbag | ] |
So I guess it's my 3rd day of New York living with the pops. It's been good, aside from it raining almost 24/7. Today I woke up late forgot my id, didn't realize it until I got to school, and didn't feel like running back to get it in time. Instead, I took the subway to Canal st. and went shopping in Soho. Which was good, except for getting harassed to join the Socialist party. Afterwards, I tried to sneak into the Rufus Wainwright/Ben Folds concert in central park. There was security and fencing all over so my plan of jumping through a shrub didn't quite pan out. I met this guy though who was telling me about free concerts on Wednesday nights, so it's alright.
Oh, does anyone watch fuse? Yesterday, I met some guy on fuse, I forget his name though. Not sure if he was a host or in a band but he was taping at 4:30 yesterday and wearing a hat. Someone tell me who this is. Afterwards, me and Leah were waiting outside Houlihan's for her mom and this woman comes out of the restairant naked, dancing in front of a huge group of people. true story. Nobody even tried to stop her. In fact, the only person who said anything was the dude selling the bootleg spiderman Dvd's. And all he kept saying was 'Oh no she didn't, oh no girl.' seriously, complete indecent exposure. we laughed for about 20 minutes, i think you just had to be there though. the nudity wasn't what really shocked me , it was the fact that this was in front of Houlihan's, the family restaurant. My parents used to take me there all the time when I was little. There were clowns, and ice-creams in bowls shaped like baseball caps. What is this world coming to?
i'm bored, someone im me(recycledair1)
p.s. my cell phone is messed up, so sorry to anyone who calls me.
peace d00dz!!!
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| independecia! |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|12:58 am] |
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| | thoughtful | ] |
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| | louis armstrong | ] |
Lighting firecrackers out on the front lawn, there'd be no distance that could hold us back.
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